Today’s the first time I’m taking formal college-level classes since graduation… and after glancing through the materials and watched about an hour of lectures, I decided to drop both classes :’<
It’s not that the course is hard. Nor that I am a slacker. Who signs up for classes and then drop them to feel like a failure? I definitely didn’t. It’s just that the timing of these classes are not working out with my work/life schedule for the next few weeks :( Yeah yeah I could be making up excuses left and right to justify this situation. If I have the capacity, I would totally tough through it all. But in all honesty, I am already spreading myself a little thin. Working nearly 10 hrs a day, plus preparing for an exam, AND all the while handle my parents. I crashed last weekend. I slept for all Saturday, ate nothing. And the only thing I did Sunday was going to Costco to get me some TreeTop fruit snacks. *sigh.
If these classes started maybe a couple weeks earlier or later, it would have been cake. I’m disappointed in myself, the situation that I am stuck in, and my inability to handle it like a pro. I want to be the super female who could have family, career, and life all at the same time. But the truth is, I am not capable :(
Sometimes I do miss my college days. I HAD SO MUCH TIME TO DO WHATEVER I WANT. So what I was a little broke?
What a sad day to realize all this =\
In case you’re wondering…These are the classes that I dropped:
Foundations of Business Strategy
Pattern-Oriented Software Architectures for Concurrent and Networked Software